Accident……

So yesterday I was patiently waiting for my mother to come drive me home from work when I get a call from her saying she has met with an accident. Was in shock cos my mother drives at a grand speed of 30 km/h on a good day. If not she never passes 20 km/h!!!
Rush to the spot which was thankfully close by and she is surrounded by cops. The story was that a man had walked right into the car and yes that sounds super dodgy and the cops were giving her a hard time. The man was taken to the general hospital and my brother was sent off to check on his well being. My mom was most traumatized and standing in a corner listening to the cops who were trying to intimidate her saying she will be spending the next few days in remand!

Thankfully the man was fine and he was more concerned about apologizing to my mom and making sure she was ok than anything else. The police looked most displeased and they sent one of their officers to record a statement.

One hour later we were waiting at the cop shed and my brother arrives with the police officer and the statement. We sit their waiting for him to take our statement and he starts writing and writing and writing filling out like 4 pages. An hour later he stops and we think all is done. Then he starts asking mom question like where were you going… what time and then starts writing again and only then we figure at that time he was copying the other mans statement from his notes into the record book! AAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! So another hour of writing and writing and more writing… Finally he finishes and then tells us the car has to be in remand till the man is discharged and comes to the station .

So left the car and finally got home about 11 !!! poor mom had nightmares all night she had a long chat with the man she hit who said he was deep in thought and wasn’t looking when he crossed the road. She gave him along lecture on how he should be careful and how worried she is for him! We have to now wait for the hospital to release him and then return to the police station for another spend the evening… not fun at all !! But thank god no one was harmed!

FILTERS.................

Why is it that some people have absolutely no sense of filtering some of what they say.. I mean all of us know that something are simply better left unsaid… But then why why why do some moronic members of our community insist on saying the most inappropriate things that leave you dumbfounded!!

Example 1 :

I walk into a senior colleagues office today while hurrying about with work and our conversation goes something like this :

Me: Hi XYZ do you have a black pen I can borrow for a minute
XYZ: You are black no
Me: I’m sorry what did you say ( I thought I must give him the benefit of doubt)
XYZ: I said YOU ARE BLACK
ME: (absolutely dumbfounded) WELL YOU ARE UGLY!!!!!! –
Is what I should have said but I kept calm and looked at the fool pityingly and said “well I cant really use myself to sign this document now can so give me a pen if you have one!!”

AARRRGHHHHHHH!!!!! Seriously!! Did you see that coming! All for just asking to borrow a pen. Yes I am dark and I am thrilled about it. But its weird to have someone just say that to you out of the blue! I mean even if you thought something like that why say it! Filters I say! Get some Filters!

Example 2:

Family wedding with cousins from near and a far gathered. One of my older cousins is still not hitched and the world around refuses to let her be!

Old Bat 1: ah hello girls you’ll are looking lovely . Congratulations X on getting engaged
Me : Thank you aunty
Old Bat 1 : Ayooooooooo XY1 you are still not married no .. see all your younger cousins are getting married .. What is wrong with u… and u look so sad and thin now..

We all murmur a torrent of abuses under our breadth and say things about us turning lesbian but she is immune to it all and keeps rattling on about how one must get married at a tender age or all the good boys will be missed out on!!
AAAAAARgh. My poor cousin! Why can’t they just leave her alone. What kind of pleasure does one get from stating the obvious and rubbing it in!!!!!!!!!

I’m sure everyone has faced comments like this when people say “MY GOD MEN.. YOU HAVE REALLLLLLLY GOT FAT NO!!! “ - Hello !! did I ask you?? Are you my personal walking weighing scale!

FILTERS!!!!!!!! FILTERS!! FILTERS!!!!!

The Bitch

Some people truly define the word bitch,, I mean they epitomize what bitchiness is and work towards taking it to a higher level.

I recently bumped into someone who I think was the sole reason the term bitch was coined. Point in case: I barely know this girl. We have met occasionally at communal gatherings and shared a smile and at the most a hello how is it going. So in my head she was just this girl I knew of who hung around some common friends. That was it. We had nothing else in common and nothing else transpired between us.

UNTIL…. a few months ago we were at this common friend’s party and we as usual smiled and nodded at each other. She happened to know the guy I was dating at that point so they got talking and he mentioned that we were seeing each other. She had then given a catty evil laugh asked him if he was drunk when he met me!!!!!! He was shocked and had juts walked away! HELLO!!!!!!!!!! Where did that come from! She doesn’t even know me!! Now why would anyone go make a remark like that… seriously WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was informed of this conversation only much after it happened if not I would have drowned her in her glass of Vodka. Now every time I see her I feel like tripping her or flushing her down the commode!!

OK this is not a hate post! I juts don’t understand why people say things about people they don’t even know!
If you know someone and decide to bitch about them its wrong.. but atleast its based on facts you know about the person and decide you don’t like .... But this!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAARGH!!

Time for change...........

For the longest time I felt like my life was in a rut… nothing interesting was happening and it was a same shit different day kind of existence..

Now its all suddenly changed… I ended one of the most intense yet most volatile relationships in my life…………… I am engaged to be married in 4 months ………I will be leaving the country to go live with my husband…..

Lots of change…..quite a heap of it actually.. and right now I’m terrified…
My marriage was via a proposal not the conventional kind of boy meets girl .. They talk for 2 minutes.. they get married.. I met my fiancée through our mutual cousins and we actually went for a series of lunches and dinner which lasted all of 4 days and then our parents intervened..

He is a lovely person… It is no fairytale type romance.. but then there is no reason for me to fear either…. But what worries me is the facet that I’m leaving my fabulous support system here consisting of my family and friends and god knows I have the best ever family and the best best friends…. But come December and I gotta leave them all behind and juts go…Start a new life in a new place.... it will be good and I’m sure I will be happy … .

But I simply cant imagine moving away from what I’ve got so used to.. My friends…….. The silent strength behind who I am… how can I even begin to describe wot I will miss….
our daily coffee/ card / game sessions…
the fact that we know each other so well we can complete each others sentences…
The fact that I’ve never been so comfortable with a bunch of people before…
the fact that no matter wot time ..
no matter what situation all I need to do is pick up the phone and they will be there for me…

I’m sure as life goes on I will meet new people and make new friends… but for the last 8 years I am so thankful to god for giving me the most awesome set of friends ever…and I doubt one can be this lucky all over again in this respect….

I know change is good… but right now… I’m terrified…

Inspired

Inspires by the works of other fellow bloggers.. here is my list ..

I remember happier times… when little things brought me much joy

I don't want to be a lot of the person I am today….

I want a life where I can be truly happy and content

I hate racists, liars and people who bitch about you for no reason

I wonder if true happiness ever does exist

I have forgiven but rarely forgotten

I know too much about life to not be jaded and cynical

I wish I was a born in a fairytale…

I love my family and my friends and my puppy

I won't ever stop fighting for what I think is right

I hope that people will learn to co exist in a more harmonious less cannibalistic manner

I can change little things around me if i make the effort

I enjoy watching puppies play

I truly believe in what goes around comes around!!

I will always stand by those who I love

I try to live up to my expectation but fail constantly…

I desire luxury and a deccadent lifestyle

I choose to be who I am.. to do what I do.. and face the consequences..

HIC ..HIC ...HIKKA..

I was planning on this post right from when i got to Hikka and now I’ve been super inspired by the posts by Hissy fit and the doc. so here is my experience/version of the Hikka beach fest.

So we left for our weekend by the beach at 2 on Friday afternoon. I was being cursed by one and all as i had work and everyone got delayed due to my work schedule :) oh well thats wot friends are for right! Anyways we were staying a lil away from the centre of all action to avoid the constant crowds and we had booked into Heritance in Ahungalla. So we made it there in an hour a bit and checked into our pretty rooms and even before we put our bags down we rushed to the room service menu cos i was so famished by then. So we ordered some food.. Gawked at the prices ( a club sandwich costs Rs 850 and it is not fancy at all!! )

anyways ate and then went for a walk on the beach. Teh sea was very rough and teh guards would not let us get anywhere deep so we sat by the shore and build sandcastles .

It was 7 pm all too soon and we headed for the buffet. then gathered our group and started on the alcohol. We left to the beach rave about 11 and oh my goodness the crowds and tha cars! After looking for parking for ever we finally found a spot and walked a good 20 minutes to the party venue. All traces of alcohol had disappeared by then!

got to the party and there were crowds of people. Luckily one of our angelic friends had managed to secure VIP passes into some Tigo lounge area so off we went passing the queues and i must say i didn’t expect much but the place was decorated very well.. There were couches and even a Jacuzzi!!! Most impressed we found a place where we could settle ourselves. Many drinks later.. i have no idea how many hours passed.. the DJs who had come down started to play. Paul Mendez rocked!!!!!!!!!!! and we got to meet him as he was ushered in out through the tigo area!! the rest of the night was a bit of a blur.. there was dancing.. lots of drinking,.. and at some point i found myself in the front of the stage . in retrospect I have noooooo idea how we twisted out way there through the thousands of people!!
Stayed at the rave till 6 am - the :) so made it back in time ate an awesome breakfast and crashed!


When we woke up the next day it was 4 pm! so much for enjoying the sun and the sand. I managed a long walk by the beach more of a run and by the end of it i was ready to chop my legs off! the gang gathered and it was decided we would go check out the rave again as there were new DJs and a different set of friends were to be meeting us there. So dragged my sore hung-over self to the rave. Day 2 was more crowded ...if that was even possible!
There was apparently a live wire on the beach from one of the light things and people were getting mildly electrocuted!! So a few hours later we headed back to the hotel leaving behind the energized ravers who were partying 2 or 3 days in a row!

After a lazy Sunday spent in bed and lots of good food we headed back to Colombo all raved out  All in all I had a great time.. atleast the bits I can remember 

To settle..

Do you ever feel like life has just gone by and most of what you wanted has just been compromised on..
Do your ever go along with something cos it seems like the right thing to do and then realised along the way that the whole purpose of it has been lost..

Did u ever think when u were younger and when u dreamed of wondrous things that one day along the way you would have to put all your dreams aside and just settle...

SETTLE/ RECONCILE / MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY WITH ... cos sometimes that's the only thing left to do.. its the only way out . But along the way .. after you have decided to settle for something.. compromised on your wants, dreams, desires .. it will all come back to haunt you !

Doesn't it make you wonder.. was it all actually worth it!!

Still I Rise

Still I Rise


You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Maya Angelou


I found this ever so inspiring... so wanted to share it..

Long island iced tea..

So yesterday started of as a crappy day. well it ended pretty much the same way too but i will get to that in a bit!

so work was annoying as hell with people trying to palm of their various duties on other unsuspecting souls ! I mean come one we all get paid to work so wot on earth makes some people think that by work it merely mean palming it off on someone else! aaaaaaaaaargh! anyways dealth with it by writing a well worded yet cutting email to one and all concerend . It worked !! well so far atleast.

So at the end of my crappy day i decided i must have a drink as nothing helps relieve stress like a good drink. So grabbed my posse and headed off to to the inn that is very green. Ordered and drank 2 long island iced teas.. no one else was drinking for soem bizarre reason ..they were just watching but well nothin was about to deter me. and let me tell you this! The long island iced tea at the inn that is green most definitely hits the spot!! I was very merry by the end of it.
so so so very merry that once i got home and got on the phone with the better half i laughed through most of what i now realise was a fairly serious fight! anyways I hung up and blissfully fell asleep and wpt a blissfull sleep it was~

But of course woke up this morning to a series of text messages that made me want to go right back to sleep. Dream land is so much of a nicer place i think!!!! anyways now in the process of making amends!~ most stressfull... might end up needing more long island iced tea today again :) :) :)

To buy or not to buy..

so the last few weeks have been going blissfully well ... gosh i hope i didn't jinx it by saying that aloud. but tis true~ the world is a pretty and better place... :)

The family have been making a greater effort to be nice to me and vice versa so that is going well. I think its just sunken in to one and all that come next year there will be no more me to yell at !!

in other news its the better halfs birthday and despite my various monetary concerns and constraints i have decided to surprise him and go visit. Now in order to do this i had to go through many hassles which included obtaining a new credit card with a large limit ... which is very scary for me as my money management skills are undoubtedly TERRIBLE !! I have discussed my new pay back plan with many friends and while it is by no mean full proof ones got to do wot ones got to do... true love knows no boundaries ~ ( except maybe a few financial ones /!!)


so now plans have been made friends have been called, The only dilemna i am facing at the moment is if i need to buy the better half a present... My going there has to be a good present right! I mean i would love to splurge on him but any more spending and I may have to sell myself and my soul...

what the !!!!!!!!

ok so i seem to whine alot. Alot of good things have happened since my last post but those shall be updated later. In short im now engaged to be married next year! while the actual significance of this is yet to sink in I'm most distracted with silly happenings in my life.

Why oh why cant u wake up happy and juts stay happy for the rest of the day., So I wake up all happy and blissful and early morning i realise my sibling has taken my phone charger and lost it. I mean really dude! how the hell am i supposed to get my phone charged.

Go down for breakfast and the maternal unit starts on her tirade of dont eat sugar with the porridge. I hope u didnt eat alot for dinner last night. What time shall we go to the gym. I mean hell i know ive gotta lose weight but for crying out loud wot oh wot wd she do if she had yokozuna as her son!!!!!!! she should be counting her blessings ! aaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Then of course a bitter fight with the better half. and really it was not my fault.

Im worried now about everything! where my life is heading...... the consequences of my decisions.......... i wish we could see the future... for a bit atleast....... a lil glimpse.. just so its a bit clearer about which path to take...

So here I am .... getting ever so close to turning 30 and i somehow thought i would have it all figured out by then. But everything is as uncertain as it was 5 years ago . Maybe even a little more so considering i feel my time is quickly running out and my biological clock is on overdrive!!



My fears are made worse by my mother and grandmother who are at their wits end that i am not married... and the nearing 30 issue mite drive them both to hospital in a few months.

I feel responsible and guilty fot their misery but I have reached a stage where i absolutely don't trust my own judgment when it comes to men. The choices i make are always wrong! So this is a total no win situation!



work is the one good thing but now with the fucked up way things are going any kind of work in the conflict zone is stalled and the bombs can now let lose and destory everything that was built during the so called ceasefire period. oh well i guess the catch phrase of the people in the WAnni would be "SHIT HAPPENS - ALL THE BLOODY TIME "



And time continues to speed by and nothing seems to be changing except of course the fact that there are Rajapakse's blooming all over the place taking over everybit of whats left our our country.



On a brighter note maybe this is just monday morning blues!! oh well .

My first post !

This is my very first blog and my very first post!!

I decided it was time to write about random things in my life and around me. While my views and thoughts may not be profound and awe inspiring I hope I enjoy this journey of discovering the blogger in me !!